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Friday, June 19, 2009

Everyone's a little bit racist, sometimes...

click for full view, you will need it

And now for the picture that I'm sure a few people wanted, but that nobody was willing to ask for.
Oh, this image is a little bit misleading, it should be something like 'political/religious alignment/time', and some of the fields appear larger than they are, but I'll get around to fixing it some time.
I guess this requires some explaining.

Yes, for most of my life I have been a conservative/militant Christian, aka a 'Christfag'. Although both my parents are Christian, they are fairly lax, so I have my grandparents to blame for my indoctrination in that regard. It was only upon coming into high school that I was finally snapped out of that phase. At first, learning about new religions in the light of an unbiased viewpoint meant that I could appreciate different belief systems for the first time in my life. However, as time went on, I began to hate Christianity, not only for the horrors enacted in its name over history, but for what it had turned me into during my younger years. I eventually retreated into a misanthropic state, with a dash of pangloboantiestablishmentarianism, although that only really came about proper in my militant phase. I studied occult/alternative religion for a while, but never followed it that seriously. [The 'satanism' section above is a bit of a silly approximation: it also includes wicca, heathenism and thelema]
The militant atheist phase was the beginning of my descent into complete hate. Pangloboantiestablishmentarianism [the belief in the disestablishment of all state religions] set in around this point, although as the graph shows I was fairly centre-right around this time. Although I hated religion, I wasn't going to call people out about it, or cut off communication with them for their beliefs. I never really talked about my views to anyone, though. My militant side was quite a big secret.
After a while this evolved into mild national socialism, influenced by people I ran into while browsing on DeviantArt. Yes, I was a non-racist Nazi. This is entirely possible and probably one of the most interesting parts of my political history. There is no real category or name for what I was at this time, because it is impossible for anyone to truly be a 'Nazi' in these times, and I could not call myself a neo-Nazi as this was a completely different [and utterly retarded] system. I went by the original belief system of the NSDAP, and tried to tone down as much as possible the undesirable aspects which were often capitalised on by the neos [which of course the NSDAP did not do]. I had a brief foray into neo-Nazism before realising that it was stupid and returned back to mild National Socialism. Oh, and I was still atheist all this time, in case you were wondering.
After a while, I realised that what I had originally set out to do had degraded into calling myself a Nazi without really doing anything about it [except liking swastikas a lot]. Dismayed, I decided that I wasn't really a Nazi at all, and went back to being centrist. I still, however, really fucking like Nazi uniforms/symbolism. It's a pretty common thing actually.

Incidentally, my hating Judaism is not a result of my nazi history at all. In fact, it's completely independent of it, and I never really hated [or knew much about] it until quite recently.


This year I went to university and approached/was approached by the socialist club. Having been mostly ignorant of politics throughout my entire life, I discovered I was left-wing all along [well, ever since the end of the NS era] and became officially socialist. I'm going to a rally tomorrow, actually.
That is the story of my political/religious history. Now stop calling me a Nazi and give me all your pictures of hot guys in uniforms.

2 people have seen the light.:

Blastcage said...

that was self-indulgent

JDalpha said...

Wow. That sounds like a idea for an HBO TV movie right there. That, and the bad things Christianity has done to this world, from enslaving Africans to the Crusades, why don't people pay attention to that kind of thing? Also, yes, this is me form the JDfilms forum. Still, BRomega's being lazy with the advertising. AGAIN. UGH.